Is it normal that i am incapable of feeling good anymore?
two years ago, the only girl I ever had a relationship with left. She told me she loved me. She never left a sign of resentment. When she left nothing added up. She apparently had been lieing to me the whole time about everything. She seemed to hate my guts.
How someone can lie so well is beyond me, but we are talking about my feelings and not being capable of being actually happy...
Being with her was the only time I ever felt truly happy. before her, I simply had no care for anything. I was not sad nor was I happy, I was neutral on most things, and frustrated about how stupid most of the population was. Then she came along and the feelings I had felt... were in my perception, feelings of love and happiness.
for 2 years I felt sadness, and in my most clear moments, simply careless, like my old self.
Since then, I've entered another relationship, and this person is just above and beyond amazing. I feel I would love her if I could, but that feeling is absent. happiness is absent. I feel held back, like I can't love anymore. I knew I had issues with emotions, but this... was something I do not want. I want to be able to feel these feelings, but I can't. So I do what I can to keep the relationship going while I try to get help for it. So far that help proves worthless. So am I as abnormal as I feel mentally?