Is it normal that i am happy one moment and depressed the next?
Hi there.
I am wondering if the way I am is normal. I am happy one moment. I feel that life is great, I am a good person, things are going well, I feel confidant and feel like I can do anything I put my mind to. This usually lasts for a couple of hours to a full day. However, I just as often (if not more often) feel extremely depressed, hopeless, hateful, without friends, judgmental, helpless, self conscious, like a failure, and like I will never able to be successful or happy or have real friends.
I also feel like my emotions are highly dependent on my physical state. I am often tired and have mild headaches or just want to take a nap, or lay down and watch tv or something. This is often inconvenient because I am a college student and am very busy and have lots of things to do. I feel like when I am feeling this way I have no ability to control the way I act around others. I wish I was friendlier and warmer, but in general I am quiet, cold, and very shy, or anxious or awkward.
I am a girl (21) and dated one boy for two years. We fought all the time and hated each other, but also felt like we loved each other at times. Since then I have pretty much closed myself off to men, but am now realizing that I need to become warmer if I ever want to meet someone. However, I feel that my up and down emotions and inability to control these emotions makes it difficult to put on my "happy face." I am a terrible actor, and if I am feeling unhappy, it is impossible for me to hide it- like i said, I am usually quiet, and sometimes complain.
My dad is a mental basket case, who was very emotional (with up and down emotions) as well, and I don't want to end up like him. His got worse as he got older.
Please let me know what you think.