Is it normal that i am happy but would happily die now

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So without a long story, i would say im a fairly normal 30yr old guy, i have a lovely girlfriend, my parents are italian and got a big loving family which i had all around me growing up, i had a fairly normal childhood i think, we were not rich but i never went without what i needed, i have good friends i have known since school, i'm not a doctor or anything but i been with the same company for 11 years so i could be a lot worse and feel like a ungrateful dude even saying this but i just couldn't give a shit about my life, before anyone thinks depression, bi-polar etc, i know it is not i just have a very carefree attitude about dying and have even thought if i knew i was going to die it really wouldn't bother me, i wouldn't be screaming or running around crazy but i would just accept it, i don't have massive stress in my life but i could quite easily just have my life end and i wouldn't care, i am a nice guy, laugh a lot, am good company but honestly i just think i should die and it would be easier, maybe i have some fear of old age but i would happily just die now at 30, i would never commit suicide, i would never involve anyone else in this but i just think before anything in the future like children(btw i really hate kids) i should just go.

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  • HowFarShouldOneGo
    11 years ago | pl

    you aren't alive.

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  • AlphabetCity
    11 years ago | pl

    "The beauty of life is the pain never lasts." - me
    Old ideas wilt and die like dust and splinters.
    Death can make perfect sense, it's peaceful, effortless, freeing, but it can also make terrible sense. Lifeless, without life is to not live and to not live is well, nothing. It's a perfect storm.

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