Is it normal that i am extremely pesimistic?
Okay so i am a very pessimistic person everything I look at reminds me of death. If I look at a rainbow I think about how happy people are who look at it and then I think about the rainbow disappearing and never coming back. I have no self confidence and wish that I was never born I was severely abused from age 10-14 and I have never since been happy. I often put a fake smile on. When I ask my mum to get me a physiatrist appt she says there is nothing wrong with me. I am 16 years old I can't do anything without consent. I can't go get an appt without her. I know there is something wrong but nobody will listen.