IIN that I always reject boys I like?

I do believe you may actually not be sexually attracted to males. Sure you might have a crush on them, but that's due to the instinct 85% of people have to mate with the opposite sex. You may be pan sexual, and not know it. If you're confused about it, then that shows a sign that you may wish to experiment before you hop into a relationship with anyone. Besides, I do not judge you for what you did, even though misleading someone is very rude, you may have not been ready for it. I apologize if this at all seems insulting, but I am just giving out the facts and possibilities of the situation. All I have to say is, try experimentation with same sex and opposite sex. You don't have to have intercourse with either, just attempt to date one and then the other, and see what works better for you. Also being in a relationship and working up to sexual relations is a more comfortable way of adjusting to sexual encounters. It's not good to just be friends, flirt once in a while, then jump into bed together and expect magic to happen. Life and movies are two different things, in the movies it happens all the time, which is why I despise romantic movies. Unrealistic interaction is not the best thing to get your inspiration from. Best wishes,-Wicked