Is it normal that i all of a sudden feel this way?
In the beginning I didn't really think much about this guy. I just figured that he was like a regular customer, a regular nice person. But then one night he came in, and bam! My heart just started racing, and all of a sudden I cared. It was like it came out of nowhere. And it's not like he showed interest or anything. It's not like he said something out of the ordinary that would make a girl go weak at the knees. No, he just said what he alway's say's when he comes in. And that was just a greeting.
But for some strange reason, ever since that weird, regular, normal night, I have been seriously gaga over this guy ever since! And when I was at the register I could see my hands were kind of shaking a little, and that is really not like me at all. Well, at least not how I've been in a long time. Last time my heart raced for a guy was when I was, 15. But that was five years ago!! And It's not a crush. I mean, I find him very attractive, but I just never payed attention to that when he came in. I knew he seemed nice, but I just didn't pay attention to what he looked like. Maybe it's possible that on that night I just happened to focus, and see it. Okay, maybe it is a crush.
But whenever he comes around I feel like I'm having an anxiety attack. I don't like feeling this way, because I know that I have this problem where, I tend to blurt it out when I like someone. And I have a huge fear of rejection, and this guy is just an innocent customer. People have told me that I'm pretty before, but still I really don't think I should feel this way, because I have a feeling I'm gonna get hurt. Plus, I don't want to make anybody feel uncomfortable. I know already I'm gonna blurt it out. I know it. I mean, I'm already starting to slip. I was clearly acting strange. And I already told people who I work with. One of them even offered to talk to him for me. I said that it wasn't necessary.
Tell me if it's normal that I randomly just started feeling this way so abruptly, and unexpectedly the way I did. And if you have any advice. Please and thank you! I know it sound's pathetic for someone to be freaking out over a crush, but I really don't know what to do. I feel a little embarrassed too. Normally, I know how to act in situations like this, but for some reason this time I feel more like a child then anything.