Is it normal that i’m ready to die for my girl friend

You'll find out later that all the time you invested was a complete waste of your life.

Aren't hormones lovely? She sounds like she is using your passion for her to control you.

It's not reasonable to expect someone you're in a relationship with to give you exactly what you give them. In any case, how the hell would you even measure that? Use a stop watch during conversations? Take videos and count how many compliments she gives you compared to how many you give her? Assign a number to the emotional value of particular words and keep track using a spreadsheet?

That would clearly be completely bonkers, so it all comes down to a matter of personal perception, and your perception now is that you're getting less from this relationship than she is, and you feel that's not fair. Your perception may or may not be correct, since it is a fact that none of us can be completely objective about such things.

Real love is not giving to someone else in the expectation of getting the same in return; real love is giving with no expectation of getting anything in return. That's not to say you should aspire to be a doormat and stay in a relationship with someone who gives you nothing. If someone treats you like shit and gives you no sign that they care about you and respect you, then they are not worthy of your time, energy and attention. You may continue to love them and wish that things were different, but continuing to give them those gifts is damaging to yourself and you need to recognise that staying in the relationship is harmful.

You have a choice: continue to give her what you believe you should give her and accept that what she gives you in return is as much as she can, or accept that she's not able to give you what you need, and go look for someone else who can do that.

Finally, I see in one of your comments that you say you have no friends. That suggests your only real emotional involvement is with this one woman, and you're expecting her to give you absolutely everything you need from another human being. That's a ridiculously heavy burden to expect her to bear, and it's just not realistic or fair. People in healthy relationships value their time together, but they also need time apart, and they need to have emotional connections with people outside the confines of the relationship.

You are acting like being too needy .. its boring as hell . U dont have any life ? No one likes this shit

Wouldn't you rather be in a relationship that's a bit more mutual? I doubt she'd die for you.

Sorry bud. She wont be sexually attracted to you if you keep acting like a wimpy bitch. Ladies wont a real man, ya dig, Unless they are a crazy feminist or lezzo

All these folks are giving you good advice and you're not acknowledging anything. Then why ask the question?

I'm not a guy, but I like to hope that I would become annoyed with her behavior, and dump her if I were in your shoes. Love and relationship should be a two way street. It looks like you're doing all the work, and she's just reaping the benefits. Is this really what you want?

I’m honestly a little confused after reading this especially the dying part but if you’re her slave free yourself dude. Get tf away from that controlling cunt. You can’t force someone to do something you’re not willing to sacrifice yourself.

love is a two way street, its never easy but you have to meet them halfway, she might not be as far along as you, if i were you i wold back off a little before you scare her away and lose the potential growth to where she would be up for a more involved relationship. obviously this is generalized and time is and element, so it may not be the case here.

As someone with social anxiety
Please date me instead
Lol

You get one shot, one opportunity, don't waste it

Get a real life

I also have just 1 friend and my girlfriend, so I don't talk to many people. We had a long period where we fought a lot due to expectations. We used to talk a lot when we got in relationship but later she got busy with her life and we weren't getting enough time. I wasn't used to this separation so it created a lot fights between us cuz I wasn't getting same attention from her.

On her first birthday I did a lot and on my birthday she didn't do anything. Actually she did but I was too impatient and compared the efforts instead of appreciating what she did.

She always greets me good morning, asks if I had breakfast, lunch etc but I never ask those things. Because I assumed she is hungry all the time(sometimes right after meal she says she is hungry) so she will always eat on time. She thought I don't care as much about her and assumed I don't love her enough.

With time we understood each other and don't burden one another with expectations. We very rarely argue now because we accepted we have our different ways to show love.

You haven't written many examples of what you do and she doesn't. But expecting her to call you just as much as you do will just lead to fights and misunderstanding. If she doesn't call you at all or doesn't do anything for you then she might not be right girl for you.

Little notes:
I know what I’m doing is toxic in other people perspective, but I don’t feel it’s toxic.
I don’t have friends, I choosed to not have because I don’t feel comfortable with that.
I growed up lonely

The dying part means I’m ready to do anything for her.