Is it normal that, as a child, my father spooned with me ?

hmm unless you felt stuff you should he could just love that much. Have you ever felt like hanging something so hard you gonna break it/him/her?

I think you should try to think it over. What's your relationship now with your father?

Ok that doesnt sound like he molested you. If you can remember him spooning you youd probably remember him molesting you. Repression isnt as common as people think at all. On the other hand it is a bit weird. Tricky one, can see why so few people have commented

From what you described, it sounds like child molestation, which is definitely not normal. Your behavior is probably a reaction of what happened to you as a child. Most likely, when your boyfriend tries to touch you your body remembers back to what happened (given your age and what was going on, fear would be a logical reaction). There's lots of people that have been in your shoes who have been able to overcome it through therapy.

I quite literally remember the exact same thing with me and the same age. My dad has always suffered with a serious porn addiction and sex addiction. He went through a lot of trauma when he was much younger and he was a single dad or his girlfriend refused to have sex with him so he was getting it from much younger women. My dad would pull me closer to him from what I remember and he would stick his hand up my shirt (I thought this was weird than again I did not develop boobs yet) I started to really think about it only a year ago and it bothers me very much. I know my dad loves me but I started to wonder if he meant it in a sexual way because he has issues and he knows I know that. Me and him do not have a good relationship and have a very manipulative relationship now but when I was younger we were close and I was a daddy’s girl.

Thanks. I appreciate your opinion !

Thank you ! I'd like to have more opinions please !