Is it normal that all I want from life is to be high

I smuggled a bottle of wine into our car trunk at my families christmas party. I drank a lot of it with my 19 year old cousin and we just had a great time. The rest i had to myself at home and it was great, i even enjoyed watching my cat just walk around. Eventually i realized that drugs are the easiest source of happiness. Im 15 and all my friends buy 450$ ps4s. They say "youre an alcoholic" "youre retarted for drinking" theyre the retarted ones that spend 450$ on a box that delivers mediocre thrills. Id much rather spend my money wisely and get some weed or alcohol, things that can bring me endless amounts of happiness for next to nothing."you'll get addicted you fag" maybe i want to be addicted. Being addicted doesnt have to be negative. Just like you can be addicted to running or video games, you can be addicted to drugs. In life i seek the most amount of happiness and nothing even comes close to drugs. I think that your urges are fine. Theyre just you wanting to have some fun. Dont resist it. As long as youre having fun and not causing harm to others, youre good