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I try not to have indecent thoughts about this girl I really like, because I think she's really special and doesn't deserve me thinking about her pervertedly despite whether or not she knows I think of her.
I can relate to this. Like you feel like having sex would be like throwing mud at her or something. Cause like sex or sexual things are perceived as dirty and you don't want to see her in that light. I don't know how normal this is but I felt the same way you do now about the last girl I had a crush on.
The reality is that natural men's hormones and "plumbing" make them think sexy thoughts much more than they probably want to admit. Sex isn't ugly or wrong if it is with someone you love and with self respect.
I think that talking to mature men, that you respect, about how they handle those thoughts could help you to accept your own hardwired animal nature. Some men are shocked that they have those thoughts even about their daughters when they blossom.
The important thing is how you conduct yourself and redirect your thinking and energy into work that increases your self respect.
Another thing is to know that you can trust yourself to act right.
Fantasy sex life doesn't have to be acted out.
A real adult sexual relationship will give you an outlet and some relief. You do sound like you are coming from a good moral place.
I kind of understand how you feel. There's something appealing about have a chaste, "pure", vanilla imagination of someone you really like. At least for me, that bubble tends to burst pretty quickly though, which is for the best because it's really not as fun as indecency :P