It’s hard to explain, it’s like I know it’s not really right what he does, but I don’t have the physical strength to stop him. My husband was the first person in my life to really treat me right. I am what most people would consider damaged goods because of my past. So I always figured I was lucky to meet anyone who didn’t just want me so they could abuse me. His little outbursts and the spankings have always been so rare I just accepted that it is a part of who he is. Most things that have happened to me in my life have been far worse. I do know he does love me, we have been married 22 years and he has always showered me with love and attention. I haven’t exactly had any role models in my life to teach me what is or is not acceptable or normal behaviour so maybe he did need to teach me this and the spankings are just his way. Like I said I am just so confused about it all. Is it right that men should be in charge of their wives? He always says it is but we are all just people so why should one person be in charge of the other just because of what sex they were born? On the other hand because he has always taken charge of things he has made me feel safe all these years and once I got used to that feeling I never wanted to lose it. I think maybe that’s the worst bit. The way things have been more recently I am worried I am loosing that safe feeling, not because I think he would do anything really bad to me but what if I am starting to loose him. The spanking in the street was humiliating but it’s far from the worst thing that ever happened to me but that doesn’t mean I want it to become a regular behaviour. I don’t like being spanked but I can live with it. I don’t like doing the grocery shopping but I do it every week I just accept it as part of life. It’s the same as being spanked occasionally, not the greatest thing but I accept it as part of my life.
Anyway sorry for my rambling and thank you for your comment. x
IIN my husband spanks me when I make him angry
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It’s hard to explain, it’s like I know it’s not really right what he does, but I don’t have the physical strength to stop him. My husband was the first person in my life to really treat me right. I am what most people would consider damaged goods because of my past. So I always figured I was lucky to meet anyone who didn’t just want me so they could abuse me. His little outbursts and the spankings have always been so rare I just accepted that it is a part of who he is. Most things that have happened to me in my life have been far worse. I do know he does love me, we have been married 22 years and he has always showered me with love and attention. I haven’t exactly had any role models in my life to teach me what is or is not acceptable or normal behaviour so maybe he did need to teach me this and the spankings are just his way. Like I said I am just so confused about it all. Is it right that men should be in charge of their wives? He always says it is but we are all just people so why should one person be in charge of the other just because of what sex they were born? On the other hand because he has always taken charge of things he has made me feel safe all these years and once I got used to that feeling I never wanted to lose it. I think maybe that’s the worst bit. The way things have been more recently I am worried I am loosing that safe feeling, not because I think he would do anything really bad to me but what if I am starting to loose him. The spanking in the street was humiliating but it’s far from the worst thing that ever happened to me but that doesn’t mean I want it to become a regular behaviour. I don’t like being spanked but I can live with it. I don’t like doing the grocery shopping but I do it every week I just accept it as part of life. It’s the same as being spanked occasionally, not the greatest thing but I accept it as part of my life.
Anyway sorry for my rambling and thank you for your comment. x