Is it normal my father is constantly verbally abusive?

My father has always been the reason why I'm depressed. He's always calling me useless, throwing around my stuff and always looking at any reason to get mad. This has been going on for three years and It's getting to the point where I believe suicide is the answer. He's never treated my other siblings like this. Then the next day claims that he's the best father and that I have a Good life. Whenever we're in public hes two-faced, asking do I want anything expensive and as soon as we're home he gets mad for no reason and starts his repeated verbal cycle. I am sick of him and I'm happy he doesn't have many years left.

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Comments ( 17 )
  • nikkiclaire

    Hang in there. I feel suicidal and ugly today but it will pass.

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    • mikao

      Thank you very much!

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  • RavenStarr

    For me it's my mother. I don't have siblings so I can't compare to them. But I feel you... Hold on and never lose hope

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    • mikao

      Thank you

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  • I was in the exact same situation as you. I ran from home at 16. No regrets. I just had to wait for the right moment to have the cash and the help. Before this, I was subjected to violence without help. I resisted and I carefully planed my departure step by step. I suggest the same

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    • mikao

      Thank you. I'll work on the money issue

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  • KiwiWisdom

    Nothing other people do is because of you. It sucks to be in that situation and sounds too familiar to me personally. The best you can do is take quiet moments to seperate lies from truths when you get down time. Don't repeat nasty things someone else said to yourself or take them to heart. It has nothing to do with you when someone chooses to act that way.

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    • mikao

      Thank you I appreciate you taking the time to read and respond.

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  • AdamBKD

    Welcome to Asia.

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  • Nickvey

    how do you know it is he with few years left . ICUs across america are full of young tide pod eating condom snorting , suicide driving, pill popping depressed people . when you live every day like it was your last you begin to appreciate pretty much fucking everything , even the bad shit gets tastey. dont believe? ok . ask your dad.

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  • mikao

    Thank you.

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  • RoseIsabella

    How old are you?

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    • mikao

      15

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      • RoseIsabella

        Hmm... yeah, technically at your age you're still considered your parents' responsibility. It sucks! Maybe you could talk to your school counselor in the fall? Have you ever called a crisis hotline?

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  • mikao

    My mother is aware but unfortunately she doesn't even have a home herself, no job and constantly running around with men.

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  • I hope your a troll, because if not that’s a really shitty situation.

    Suicide btw, is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Your dad doesn’t need to have that kind of power over you. Don’t let his stupid ass words make you think less of yourself.
    Get help, you can talk to people on the suicide prevention hotline. You can stay with a family or friend, you can find a woman’s center or a shelter.
    And remember this, you don’t necessarily have to have a hope for the future, just a curiosity of how it will turn out.

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    • mikao

      Not a troll.

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