Is it normal if you have an identity crisis at the age of 40 or older?
Ok Im 19 but at this rate, I feel like im never going to find out who I am and I have no one else to blame but myself. Over the years, I try to act like someone else to receive the respect Ive never had as being me. I literally changed my identity/appearance like evry other week because either the last one didnt work out or I found a better one or just cause I liked one in particular more. Its cost me a lot from spending money on clothes and accessories to pull that identity off well to losing who I really am and now I cant find it. I have to dig reeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaal deep to find the intrinsic me but so many layers of other people are in me that I dont know where to start taking off because part of them is me...or so I believe? I have no idea. I have no idea who I am and when people dont like me usually it could be because....yah i dont know but then i get this attitude and I cant help it cause it comes from being disliked. So then i ask is this me with attitude and stuff? No cause thats their fault but im acting myself when im bitchy but again only cause people dnt like me. So if people did accpet me i wouldnt be sucha bitch therefore thats not my identity...?IM LOST. At this age, a lot of people know who they are already ish but i feel like 13 just barely growing and it sucks cause then i cant fully enjoy life with others especially my age since i would come across them more often than others. I feel like based on how much Ive covered myself just to be liked or at least accepted (oh that word), its going to take a while for me to finally be set in myself, move on, and live. But for right now, Im trapped in this body where people are identifying it for me when it should not be that way. Then i think well, its not like the ones who do fit in are being fully themselves anyways so I try to not put a lot of pressure in myself yet i cant be fake like them. Its a huge tangle and um I feel like a turtle is untangling it.