Is it normal if I would consider giving up a baby because of gender?

I know. What the hell? It doesn't help that i already wake up every day feeling empty inside and like just killing myself because of this. People have no empathy and forget were people behind these computers with feelings. They did a good job already confirming my low aelf esteem and making
E feel like shit. Bravo thanks for making me cry. I had only one simple dream to raise a family. I guess that just goes to show you i cant amount to shit. Because ppl online think they can make such accurate assumptions based on one little post. (Hint if sarcasm)