I know 3 people who have cut themselves. One wasn't really my friend, just someone I met online a long time ago when Myspace use to be cool. xP I can't remember much about why she did it but I can remember she had a lot of problems with family and stuff.
The second person was an acquaintance from work. She'd come up to me (and other people) and we'd just start talking, then it turned into a problem she was having, then she'd sneak in that she cuts herself and showed me. I heard she'd go to the bathroom and cut herself too. She seemed to do it for attention but she's also a really emotional person. If she's not dating someone she gets really depressed. I'm guessing that has to do with some of it.
The third person would be me. Let me try to remember correctly. At the time I was living with my dad and his girlfriend. I was 16 and my dad was never home so I was left with his crazy GF. She drank a lot and was on some back pain medication. She would come into my room at night and just stare at me. She'd let the dog loose (a Beagle -.-) at 2AM and wake me up to chase the damn thing. etc etc my dad would always take her side. She made him think I was trying to manipulate them when really I was just extremely depressed (Not just because of them, that's a whole other story ;D ). I suppose it was the perfect breeding ground for a psychotic episode.
I started having panic attacks for no reason, I couldn't leave my room to even go to the bathroom until I found the opportunity to. I couldn't go to sleep until it got light out because I was afraid. I started hearing voices, thinking someone was in the room watching me. I saw the devil in the wood of the tv cabinet in my room. I would hear whispering where ever I went.
So I was sleep deprived, depressed, anxious, paranoid, and curious. That's how it happened, and no the voices didn't tell me to do it. bahaha
This reminded me of my close friend back then who cut herself over her bf. I was in shock because she doesn't seem like she would do that yet she is vulnerable so watching pple doing it as if it was a normal way to deal w depression, she thought okay I can do it. You know like i said, the more people do it, the more normal it looks. I believe if you just surround yourself with healthier people who deal with it in a better way, it will prevent you from doing something that unnecessary.
You said it feels good? In what way? (and I'm seriously curious about the feeling you have, I'm not asking like an asswhole)
I never did it because other people were doing it, either. When I was surrounded by people who didn't cut, I felt even more isolated, whereas when I met other people who did it, I finally had someone who I could talk to about it. Mental illness isn't contagious, and coping with it isn't as simple as "surround[ing] yourself with healthier people". It would be nice if it were that easy, but it isn't.
I never did it because I knew someone who did. It just kind of happened, and after the fact I found out the girl I worked with did it. I did not want to be associated with her like we were doing it for the same reasons and I never told anyone except one person about it. I agree that if people see others doing it they might think it's okay, which is the only reason why she annoyed me.
I suppose it feels like smoking a cigarette. It's relaxing. It feels like a weight has been lifted off of you. I can't remember it ever hurting, a paper cut hurts more. It's like after you exercise, when you stretch your muscles and it feels really good/soothing, but better than that. You get an adrenaline rush whilst doing it. I didn't do it for very long so it's hard to remember.
Can I ask you if you didn't know that "cutting yourself" existed, would you still do it?
And like I said to the other comment above, I didn't believe it could actually make you feel good, it looks to me that pple cut themselves to feel more pain in order to cry more and let it all out and as said before, because it seems like a normal remedy. If it makes you feel good then I understand why you'd do it I guess but I'm still kind of iffy if I hear or saw someone did it.
Is it normal if I think cutting yourself is stupid?
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I know 3 people who have cut themselves. One wasn't really my friend, just someone I met online a long time ago when Myspace use to be cool. xP I can't remember much about why she did it but I can remember she had a lot of problems with family and stuff.
The second person was an acquaintance from work. She'd come up to me (and other people) and we'd just start talking, then it turned into a problem she was having, then she'd sneak in that she cuts herself and showed me. I heard she'd go to the bathroom and cut herself too. She seemed to do it for attention but she's also a really emotional person. If she's not dating someone she gets really depressed. I'm guessing that has to do with some of it.
The third person would be me. Let me try to remember correctly. At the time I was living with my dad and his girlfriend. I was 16 and my dad was never home so I was left with his crazy GF. She drank a lot and was on some back pain medication. She would come into my room at night and just stare at me. She'd let the dog loose (a Beagle -.-) at 2AM and wake me up to chase the damn thing. etc etc my dad would always take her side. She made him think I was trying to manipulate them when really I was just extremely depressed (Not just because of them, that's a whole other story ;D ). I suppose it was the perfect breeding ground for a psychotic episode.
I started having panic attacks for no reason, I couldn't leave my room to even go to the bathroom until I found the opportunity to. I couldn't go to sleep until it got light out because I was afraid. I started hearing voices, thinking someone was in the room watching me. I saw the devil in the wood of the tv cabinet in my room. I would hear whispering where ever I went.
So I was sleep deprived, depressed, anxious, paranoid, and curious. That's how it happened, and no the voices didn't tell me to do it. bahaha
ps, It feels good.
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This reminded me of my close friend back then who cut herself over her bf. I was in shock because she doesn't seem like she would do that yet she is vulnerable so watching pple doing it as if it was a normal way to deal w depression, she thought okay I can do it. You know like i said, the more people do it, the more normal it looks. I believe if you just surround yourself with healthier people who deal with it in a better way, it will prevent you from doing something that unnecessary.
You said it feels good? In what way? (and I'm seriously curious about the feeling you have, I'm not asking like an asswhole)
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I never did it because other people were doing it, either. When I was surrounded by people who didn't cut, I felt even more isolated, whereas when I met other people who did it, I finally had someone who I could talk to about it. Mental illness isn't contagious, and coping with it isn't as simple as "surround[ing] yourself with healthier people". It would be nice if it were that easy, but it isn't.
I never did it because I knew someone who did. It just kind of happened, and after the fact I found out the girl I worked with did it. I did not want to be associated with her like we were doing it for the same reasons and I never told anyone except one person about it. I agree that if people see others doing it they might think it's okay, which is the only reason why she annoyed me.
I suppose it feels like smoking a cigarette. It's relaxing. It feels like a weight has been lifted off of you. I can't remember it ever hurting, a paper cut hurts more. It's like after you exercise, when you stretch your muscles and it feels really good/soothing, but better than that. You get an adrenaline rush whilst doing it. I didn't do it for very long so it's hard to remember.
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Can I ask you if you didn't know that "cutting yourself" existed, would you still do it?
And like I said to the other comment above, I didn't believe it could actually make you feel good, it looks to me that pple cut themselves to feel more pain in order to cry more and let it all out and as said before, because it seems like a normal remedy. If it makes you feel good then I understand why you'd do it I guess but I'm still kind of iffy if I hear or saw someone did it.