I am aware of my flaws which makes me even more frustrated because if you know your flaws then the next thing to do is to just fix them. But I don't. For example, I know I let my nerves take over me so I snap. I need to learn to be more patient but it is so freakin hard because of my pride. I just can't let go of my ego I can't. I don't want to look weak and have people step all over me even though I am already hurting inside. I have this thing where when I do let myself be vulnerable I later regret it so bad I just try to take everything I said back as if I was just kidding. I don't want to be an open book. SO that's one flaw of mine.
I started learning to play guitar too and I really want to because I know it will release all of this frustration. But that leads to another flaw, lack of persistence. Just small things get in my way and I stop learning.
So when you say to work towards those things, its like I have tried before I turned 21 but now that I am, I feel the same. I feel like I won't be an adult until I don't know at this rate, 25. When I'm 25 I'll act like a 21 year old and when I'm 29 I'll feel 25 and so on.
Is it normal if I feel to feel depressed to be 21 already?
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I am aware of my flaws which makes me even more frustrated because if you know your flaws then the next thing to do is to just fix them. But I don't. For example, I know I let my nerves take over me so I snap. I need to learn to be more patient but it is so freakin hard because of my pride. I just can't let go of my ego I can't. I don't want to look weak and have people step all over me even though I am already hurting inside. I have this thing where when I do let myself be vulnerable I later regret it so bad I just try to take everything I said back as if I was just kidding. I don't want to be an open book. SO that's one flaw of mine.
I started learning to play guitar too and I really want to because I know it will release all of this frustration. But that leads to another flaw, lack of persistence. Just small things get in my way and I stop learning.
So when you say to work towards those things, its like I have tried before I turned 21 but now that I am, I feel the same. I feel like I won't be an adult until I don't know at this rate, 25. When I'm 25 I'll act like a 21 year old and when I'm 29 I'll feel 25 and so on.