Wow that's quite something. I just turned 21 and it may not have been a shock to my system like 20, but I certainly am beginning to understand that it's definitely time to change. But listen to me, no one, including yourself, should expect you to change over night. Same thing with your circumstance. This is something you have to work towards. Think about the things you do that really hold you back. Things you wish you wouldn't do. For me, I started with video games but at the same time, I'm going to pick up someone I've been meaning to do for awhile; learning to play guitar. Being adult doesn't mean an end to happiness it's just the time when you start to achieve a deeper sense of it. Am I making sense?
I am aware of my flaws which makes me even more frustrated because if you know your flaws then the next thing to do is to just fix them. But I don't. For example, I know I let my nerves take over me so I snap. I need to learn to be more patient but it is so freakin hard because of my pride. I just can't let go of my ego I can't. I don't want to look weak and have people step all over me even though I am already hurting inside. I have this thing where when I do let myself be vulnerable I later regret it so bad I just try to take everything I said back as if I was just kidding. I don't want to be an open book. SO that's one flaw of mine.
I started learning to play guitar too and I really want to because I know it will release all of this frustration. But that leads to another flaw, lack of persistence. Just small things get in my way and I stop learning.
So when you say to work towards those things, its like I have tried before I turned 21 but now that I am, I feel the same. I feel like I won't be an adult until I don't know at this rate, 25. When I'm 25 I'll act like a 21 year old and when I'm 29 I'll feel 25 and so on.
Is it normal if I feel to feel depressed to be 21 already?
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Wow that's quite something. I just turned 21 and it may not have been a shock to my system like 20, but I certainly am beginning to understand that it's definitely time to change. But listen to me, no one, including yourself, should expect you to change over night. Same thing with your circumstance. This is something you have to work towards. Think about the things you do that really hold you back. Things you wish you wouldn't do. For me, I started with video games but at the same time, I'm going to pick up someone I've been meaning to do for awhile; learning to play guitar. Being adult doesn't mean an end to happiness it's just the time when you start to achieve a deeper sense of it. Am I making sense?
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I am aware of my flaws which makes me even more frustrated because if you know your flaws then the next thing to do is to just fix them. But I don't. For example, I know I let my nerves take over me so I snap. I need to learn to be more patient but it is so freakin hard because of my pride. I just can't let go of my ego I can't. I don't want to look weak and have people step all over me even though I am already hurting inside. I have this thing where when I do let myself be vulnerable I later regret it so bad I just try to take everything I said back as if I was just kidding. I don't want to be an open book. SO that's one flaw of mine.
I started learning to play guitar too and I really want to because I know it will release all of this frustration. But that leads to another flaw, lack of persistence. Just small things get in my way and I stop learning.
So when you say to work towards those things, its like I have tried before I turned 21 but now that I am, I feel the same. I feel like I won't be an adult until I don't know at this rate, 25. When I'm 25 I'll act like a 21 year old and when I'm 29 I'll feel 25 and so on.