Is it normal i want to find my "first" and eat her one more time.

She and I were always on again off again but the best sex OMG. She was always a little crazy and a bit of a stalker so I have stayed clear of her for my own good. Havent seen her for 25 years but lately I cant help but want to find her. I know I will want to have rowdy casual sex like the old times and in particular I want desperately to eat that pussy again.