Is it normal i want to be fat because i don't want to look good?
I know how weird this will sound, but ever since I was a kid I received too much attention, especially from my relatives, because of how cute I was, everyone was like '' awww what a pretty nose '' and I grew up knowing I was good-looking, but as time went by I started hating being good-looking. I'm an aspie, and I also suffer from BDD, I hated the extra attention ( sometimes even from guys who complimented me way too much ) and as a BDD sufferer I always felt the pressure of looking-good. I just thought that putting on weight would solve the problem: the fat on my face hides my facial features and I don't look good anymore, no pressure of being good-looking all the time and no extra attention... my cousin always says that I should slim down again because '' it's sad to see a guy like you let himself go so fast ''
she was also physically attracted to me when I was fit.. but I feel more confident now that I'm fat. Why do I suffer from BDD? I think my facial features are way too feminine and '' soft '' for a guy, I don't like how I look.