Is it normal i wanna test reality by trying to kill myself?
Hello there everyone, I know that this is probably random but sometimes when I am alone and starring out the window I wonder if there is a way out of this life into a real world where society isn't so crappy or a place where there isn't so much hatred or injustice in the world. I feel as if this life is just a test to see if I have high morals so when I wake up, I know what it feels like to be in the ditches so that I can aspire to something greater in the real world. So bottom line, is it normal for me to want out of this "life" in search of reality? I won't kill myself of course, unfortunately I think that is how the test could fail.