Is it normal i wanna test reality by trying to kill myself?

Hello there everyone, I know that this is probably random but sometimes when I am alone and starring out the window I wonder if there is a way out of this life into a real world where society isn't so crappy or a place where there isn't so much hatred or injustice in the world. I feel as if this life is just a test to see if I have high morals so when I wake up, I know what it feels like to be in the ditches so that I can aspire to something greater in the real world. So bottom line, is it normal for me to want out of this "life" in search of reality? I won't kill myself of course, unfortunately I think that is how the test could fail.

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  • The best solution is to spend your life trying to lessen the hatred and injustice. That way, whether it's a test or not, you'll still have done some good.

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  • Suicide is not the way foward and if you kill yourself how will you relay your message to those of us still living?

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  • This is a test. And many people are failing. There is only one answer. Love. Some people just quit and walk away but we are responsible for the state of the world.

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  • ok either the world is real or it's not. Either you kill yourself early or don't (either way you still die).

    If the world is real and you kill yourself: well done you just wasted life.

    If the world is not real and you kill yourself: you wake up in a different world (no idea whether it's better or not).

    If the world is real and you don't kill yourself: You live a long and fulfilling life.

    If the world is not real and you don't kill yourself: you wake up in a different world when you eventually do die.

    If the world is real then killing yourself is worse. If the the world is not real neither action seems worse than the other. So the safest bet would be to wait and see, die at a normal time and wake up in another world if this wasn't real.

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  • If you really think life like that, then fight injustice

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  • If everything we see are hallucinations, then it doesn't matter what we do..but aince we don't have proof this is fake or real, it is better to err on the side of caution, helpnthe disadvantaged and hope we're right.

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  • If this is all fake, then why are you posting?

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  • hey, if you wanna meet up with ted bundy go right a head

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  • Go for it!

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  • don't.

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  • Yeah, please don't try it! It sounds like you're a sensitive person and you're sensitive to what's going on in the world. I'm the same and sometimes get upset about how much crap seems to go on. But remember that for every bad thing that happens... there are probably two good things happening somewhere. Also remember that the media (grr) tend to report on the bad stuff and sensationalise it - I often think it must have a negative effect on people, we are afterall emotional beings and shouldn't be under as much stress as we often are.

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  • Kill Yourself, stop being a pussy about it.

    -P

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  • to me your normal i feel like that sometimes but i won't kill myself either but yet people think i'm weird so.

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  • Try using hallucinogenic drugs , you ll find your alternative world

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  • I hold my hopes in a new land, I just want free myself from this world but I'm not going to kill myself, If only there was an alternative world where we could leave it all behind but take ourselves with.

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  • Lets make a lawyer firm and imprison the unjust governments! Hahaha.

    Yeah... don't kill yourself. Take as many as ya can with ya first!

    Kidding...

    I get your train of thought.

    Tschuss

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