Is it normal i think peaceful thoughts then horrible ones?
So, everyday,I always think of a girl in one of my new classes.We know each other and we both want to be together. There are just so many problems going on though! For one, she is trying to ignore me and advoid me. Plus, I've been having these sudden, thoughts. I'll hallucinate that she is in my room and think we are talking. Also, I'll think of what we could be and other stuff. So my main question is, is it normal to always think about a girl and think about peaceful things, then go into a trance at random thinking about doing horrible things to women? I've had these horrible ones ever since I was 7, and the peaceful ones since I was 11. I am 22 by the way.