Is it normal i think blood is pretty?
I have anxiety, so when I get really nervous, I'll cut myself deep enough for it to stream down (usually on my upper thighs) and I'll watch it, and when I'm cleaning up, I'll watch it soak through the cotton. It's really calming, and it's just like watching TV to calm yourself down for me.
Not just that, but when I get hurt, I'll watch it run down. If anyone else gets hurt, I'll offer to help them so I can see it. Whenever I watch scary movies, I ask if they have nice gore, too. I've always been this way, and when I tell someone, they look really concerned...
It's just blood, nothing else is satisfying, not water, any other bodily fluid, paint, you name it... Just blood.
>NB4, YES I'M A GIRL AND YES PERIOD BLOOD DISGUSTS ME.