I'm 26 and I just thought I'd add that I've been fantasizing and immersing myself in different fantasy worlds my entire life. Usually, I fantasize about a love interest and how we would meet each other and how our lives would play out. I go through different phases where I might fall in love with a musician or a fictional character. I often have the conversations I do with characters from my fantasies out loud only when I am alone in my room and no one is around to hear me. I also usually pace around the room while fantasizing or I might be sitting at my computer also listening to music.
I've given up on having a real life romance (I'm married to someone and we love each other but we're not in love). Furthermore, I, too, change the story line or scenarios very frequently (because when things are linear, they start to feel boring, so I like to play around with different possibilities, all of which are so exciting).
I have a nice body but I'm not very pretty (butter face). Even though there is nothing wrong with my face, I have no deformities nor do I have acne nor bad teeth or scars, I am still ugly when I look in the mirror. Makeup doesn't help and I don't need plastic surgery, but instead I need a miracle. I will never be "that woman". I will always be the invisible or even just the pretty or cute one, never the beautiful one.
Another thing is that my standard in men, even though I'm unattractive myself, is so high that it's almost impossible. I either fall in love with italian or german musicians or I fall in love with fictional characters from games or CGI movies (think Advent Children and Crisis Core - Final Fantasy).
I live a semblance of a life vicariously through my fantasies. If anything, I don't think it's hurt me but instead it's helped me push through and has given me a reason to live (aside from my loved ones of course - you know what I mean).
Is it normal I sometimes speak to myself & Fantasize constantly
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I'm 26 and I just thought I'd add that I've been fantasizing and immersing myself in different fantasy worlds my entire life. Usually, I fantasize about a love interest and how we would meet each other and how our lives would play out. I go through different phases where I might fall in love with a musician or a fictional character. I often have the conversations I do with characters from my fantasies out loud only when I am alone in my room and no one is around to hear me. I also usually pace around the room while fantasizing or I might be sitting at my computer also listening to music.
I've given up on having a real life romance (I'm married to someone and we love each other but we're not in love). Furthermore, I, too, change the story line or scenarios very frequently (because when things are linear, they start to feel boring, so I like to play around with different possibilities, all of which are so exciting).
I have a nice body but I'm not very pretty (butter face). Even though there is nothing wrong with my face, I have no deformities nor do I have acne nor bad teeth or scars, I am still ugly when I look in the mirror. Makeup doesn't help and I don't need plastic surgery, but instead I need a miracle. I will never be "that woman". I will always be the invisible or even just the pretty or cute one, never the beautiful one.
Another thing is that my standard in men, even though I'm unattractive myself, is so high that it's almost impossible. I either fall in love with italian or german musicians or I fall in love with fictional characters from games or CGI movies (think Advent Children and Crisis Core - Final Fantasy).
I live a semblance of a life vicariously through my fantasies. If anything, I don't think it's hurt me but instead it's helped me push through and has given me a reason to live (aside from my loved ones of course - you know what I mean).