Is it normal i'm turned on by rape scenes?

I often find myself disgusted by myself, the other day I was flipping through the channels and started watching law and order svu and there was a rape scene. I felt bad for the girl, i thought it was horrible, and that people who do that should be locked up forever, but at the same time I was very very turned on by it.
I find myself with that mentality a lot, I know that those things are wrong and I'm disgusted at my self for feeling this way, but the idea of taking a woman by force turns me on so hard, I love the feel of power, ever since I was a little child I've craved power. I can remember yearning to be in charge of people at least as far back as when I was 8.

Anyways, I'm not afraid I would ever actually do it, I know I wouldn't the most I've ever done without a girls express consent is cop a feel and even in those instances, it wasn't just me grabbing a random girl, she'd been acting flirtatious with me.

I'm just wondering IIN? i feel this way?