Doesn't it seem that no matter where you turn, people seem to downplay the horror of losing someone you love? They all say the same thing - cry, talk to others, do things that you enjoy. It seems to have been written by someone who had never lost someone. Cry? Of course you'll cry. You'll cry yourself sick until you have no tears left. Talk to others? Of course you'll do that too, and at times that will make you sick too, since no one can be in your shoes. Do things that you enjoy? There is nothing to enjoy in life anymore once you lose someone that you love.
Life is not the same after you lose somebody. It never will be. Happiness will never seem wholesome, pure, and innocent again. And the heartwrenching pain is within the fact that you CANNOT GO BACK! You cannot go back in time and get the person back or re-live a day. It is irreversible. What has happened is permanent. We seem to look forward to death, the ultimate release, the final escape from pain. We know there is no escape from the pain.
However, know that time washes things away. It will dull the pain. I can offer you no magic words. I can only sympathize with you. Believe me, I wish there were those magic words to heal you, and to heal me, too.
The reality of life is: Horrible things will happen, and some of them will have no fix. Death will be the fix. It just goes to show, life is hard, and life is real... and it passes so fast, too. We are raised from the soil and back to the soil we will return.
Thinking about the one I lost offers me only one little light: I will die, and I will be with him, there, in the ground. Finally re-united. Until then, I will bear my horrible existence in this world to the best of my abilities. And never forget my love.
Is it normal I'm still feeling this way?
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Of course it's normal.
Doesn't it seem that no matter where you turn, people seem to downplay the horror of losing someone you love? They all say the same thing - cry, talk to others, do things that you enjoy. It seems to have been written by someone who had never lost someone. Cry? Of course you'll cry. You'll cry yourself sick until you have no tears left. Talk to others? Of course you'll do that too, and at times that will make you sick too, since no one can be in your shoes. Do things that you enjoy? There is nothing to enjoy in life anymore once you lose someone that you love.
Life is not the same after you lose somebody. It never will be. Happiness will never seem wholesome, pure, and innocent again. And the heartwrenching pain is within the fact that you CANNOT GO BACK! You cannot go back in time and get the person back or re-live a day. It is irreversible. What has happened is permanent. We seem to look forward to death, the ultimate release, the final escape from pain. We know there is no escape from the pain.
However, know that time washes things away. It will dull the pain. I can offer you no magic words. I can only sympathize with you. Believe me, I wish there were those magic words to heal you, and to heal me, too.
The reality of life is: Horrible things will happen, and some of them will have no fix. Death will be the fix. It just goes to show, life is hard, and life is real... and it passes so fast, too. We are raised from the soil and back to the soil we will return.
Thinking about the one I lost offers me only one little light: I will die, and I will be with him, there, in the ground. Finally re-united. Until then, I will bear my horrible existence in this world to the best of my abilities. And never forget my love.