I used to be this way, now I wouldn't say I hate people but I'd rather do my own thing. I'm always alone in my dark room all the time, but when I do go out, I'm usually calm.
Personally, I prefer when I'm outside while people are going about their business. For example, I hate going to the DMV since everyone is waiting in a building and being stationary.. I feel like all eyes are on me.
Since I'm such a recluse, I still feel broken in the outside world, but I find it pathetic to express my strong sense of depression and self inadequacy/anxiety in public, I act as if I am not a hallowed out soul and just a "normal" and "happy" person.. it works for me.
I once sat on the wrong seat in the plane, like a REALLY wrong seat.. I sat nearly in the front, I was so tense and couldn't care to look up at the seat numbers until I reached the back of the plane.. idiot, I know. Anyways, I'm confronted very awkwardly by a couple, I have NO SHAME WHATSOEVER, I get up with my stuff and proudly find my proper seat in the crowded plane, I DON'T CARE what that couple thought of me.. F*** them. I'm not a confident person whatsoever either, and as bad as it sounds, I just like to think as if I'm superior and better than everyone else.. who cares about those people?
Whenever I do stupid things in public, I ignore it and act is if nothing happened... I am very suave in these cases, even with my anxiety.
Is it normal I'm scared of people
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I used to be this way, now I wouldn't say I hate people but I'd rather do my own thing. I'm always alone in my dark room all the time, but when I do go out, I'm usually calm.
Personally, I prefer when I'm outside while people are going about their business. For example, I hate going to the DMV since everyone is waiting in a building and being stationary.. I feel like all eyes are on me.
Since I'm such a recluse, I still feel broken in the outside world, but I find it pathetic to express my strong sense of depression and self inadequacy/anxiety in public, I act as if I am not a hallowed out soul and just a "normal" and "happy" person.. it works for me.
I once sat on the wrong seat in the plane, like a REALLY wrong seat.. I sat nearly in the front, I was so tense and couldn't care to look up at the seat numbers until I reached the back of the plane.. idiot, I know. Anyways, I'm confronted very awkwardly by a couple, I have NO SHAME WHATSOEVER, I get up with my stuff and proudly find my proper seat in the crowded plane, I DON'T CARE what that couple thought of me.. F*** them. I'm not a confident person whatsoever either, and as bad as it sounds, I just like to think as if I'm superior and better than everyone else.. who cares about those people?
Whenever I do stupid things in public, I ignore it and act is if nothing happened... I am very suave in these cases, even with my anxiety.