IIN I'm muslim and hate being one

I hope you will find in yourself a decision that will make you content. As a fellow muslim I would like to think that I know what you are going through. I had disregarded mainstream religion most of my life, just believed in god, up until about four years ago, when i saw the light. Ever since then, it's as if something is preventing me from going back to atheism or agnosticism. I have even tried to convert to christianity, buddhism, etc... except it seems like being a muslim is in my bones and flesh. I cannot hide it. Even though I live in a predominantly christian society, I feel like I HAVE to oblige and read namaz.