Shame I have. Shame for action, reaction, or instinctual movement I make happen. A sneeze, a cough, itching, tapping my finger or foot, if I look at a noise, I all see these as behavioral flaws. It brings me constant discomfort to have my mind running fifty different things at once, while also cracking down on just a shiver or shift of my foot if it isn't beneficial to me or the situation. The dark clothing may help not bring too much attention to my behavioral upsets.
I haven't studied my skin recently, as it turns me off drastically, and as I always shower in the dark. But I have ingrained in my mind that any freckle, two hairs coming from one pore, simple scar, or temporary red mark from pressure or a scratch,will disgust those around me and upset an entire room. So I prevent that, in an odd way.
Is it normal I have a problem with people seeing my skin?
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Shame I have. Shame for action, reaction, or instinctual movement I make happen. A sneeze, a cough, itching, tapping my finger or foot, if I look at a noise, I all see these as behavioral flaws. It brings me constant discomfort to have my mind running fifty different things at once, while also cracking down on just a shiver or shift of my foot if it isn't beneficial to me or the situation. The dark clothing may help not bring too much attention to my behavioral upsets.
I haven't studied my skin recently, as it turns me off drastically, and as I always shower in the dark. But I have ingrained in my mind that any freckle, two hairs coming from one pore, simple scar, or temporary red mark from pressure or a scratch,will disgust those around me and upset an entire room. So I prevent that, in an odd way.