Is it normal i hate myself constantly and others too

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So it's been a while since I was bullied when I was eleven. I'm a 18 year old girl by the way. I got kicked, almost drowned and had my hair so damaged it almost fell off. Afterwards, I moved school and people were not idiots with me; but now it's been seven years and since then I've hated almost everyone that's come across me. I even feel hate towards my parents, towards some teachers, classmates. I'm constanly judging me for not being the very best and judging others too because of their ignorance and lack of empathy causing them to bully me and I'm repeating the cycle. I feel disconnected and very misunderstood, I suffer from social anxiety, depression and have had suicidal thoughts because my bitterness towards everyone and myself causes me harm but I can't find the way to change or stop it. Psychologists only listen but they've never actually managed to help me a little bit more.
Has this happened to someone? What should I do?

Thanks, from a girl in distress

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  • Faceless
    7 years ago

    Well thats a nice suicide bot

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  • RoseIsabella
    7 years ago

    So you were assaulted? What you're describing sounds like PTSD.

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  • JonathanOo
    7 years ago

    I deal with the same. It's difficult to deal with even with counseling. Try to make close friends if you can

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  • tHirSTy4oJ
    7 years ago

    You should see someone ab this

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  • TexasToast09
    7 years ago

    It's not normal and it sounds like it could be caused just by having a negative mood because of the depression. Also, if you want to change, you have to accept that it takes time, so keep trying to change and don't beat yourself up over it in the meantime.

    The simple answer is to not be depressed. (As if no one has mentioned that before.) The hard part is making that happen. If you aren't already taking medication, it is an option that helps some people.

    I think the best thing I've heard, and it's been from a few different people, is to find a reason to wake up in the morning. For some people it's a person like their child or significant other, maybe a pet. For others, it's an activity like biking, surfing, or playing an instrument. Some people do something everyday that improves themselves, like running or reading. It's going to be something you have to find "on your own." We can't really tell you what will help you, only what might help you. It could be a combination of some things, but you will have to figure out what those things are.

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