Is it normal: i feel the need to tell my friends about my sexual life?
I began fooling around with a boy. Fooling around as in third-base stuff. This is my first experience doing this stuff, and we are not telling anybody because there are no strings attached. We are just friends with benefits. Or I am just his mistress. We never called ourselves anything, really. I want more, but I am also happy with this alone. I have my doubts, but I don't regret what I am doing. It can bring my mood up, and then down, to the point where I feel like I need to tell someone.
I told one, you know, showing off, and it didn't help. Told a second, more about how I was feeling, and I immediately regret it. Ever since this began, though, I have felt the need to tell my best friend ever. But he is the one who discouraged this sexual relationship with this boy and told me there are guys who don't want just fooling around and "that someone is out there waiting for you." Pfft, how pathetic. But I listened at first then I couldn't take it any-more. I just feel like if I told him he would be so disappointed, and would try convincing me to not see this boy any-more. He knows something is bringing me down when it does, but doesn't specifically know what, and when I tell him why I'm afraid to tell him, he says that's fine and says he would never be disappointed.
I don't want opinions on what I should do with this boy. But is it normal that I feel the need to tell my best friend, though I'm afraid of his reaction? And if so should I tell him, even though I have a bad feeling I will regret it?