Are you a Bill Hicks fan by chance? haha theres a comment amongst that that reminded me of an excerpt from one of his shows. I agree with what you are saying, I think alot of artists do their best work when they are drug addled and self tortured. It just seems a shame to me that I can't be proud of the work, because looking at it just brings back so many bad memories. I've flirted with the idea of selling them, but they are so personal to me. It's a very conflicting state to be in. But thank you for taking the time to write your comment and for your empathy :)
:) No problem at all. I initially made this profile because I saw opportunities to help people here, and that's certainly a rewarding way to spend some free time. :P
Hmm, how long ago was it since you've been clean? I feel like with more distance from the bad times the easier it gets, though I get the feeling you're older than I am. Im 22 and Ive had some bad experiences in my life, in childhood and then my late teen years. I'm only about a year outside of the last bad thing to have happened, but thanks to a few good friends, a good counselor and support from my family and SO the memories are getting easier to cope with already. It's getting easier by degrees to see rape scenes or rape jokes in television. And its going much faster than I thought... honestly I sort of expected I would have been more fucked up for longer.
I've just recently started doing some artwork related to what happened to me; I don't know if I'd sell any of it but I know I want it to be a gallery display.. something I can use to reach out to other victims.
Basically the point I'm trying to make is it might just not be time yet... Healing time is different for everyone and I have a very limited idea of what you went through, but our minds and bodies are pretty damn resiliant. History has plenty of examples of that. :)
And Ill have to look up Bill Hicks. I know I've heard of him but I'm not extremely familiar.
22 hey, you are wise beyond your years. I am 28 and I've been clean for 2 months. (A long time for me since I was a heavy user.) My life has improved so much I think I can fight relapsing, you're right it only gets easier with time and distance. Sorry to hear you suffered a traumatic experience, art is great to channel that out and like you said reach out to others. The embodiment in art can make a viewer with similar experiences feel less alone, so its a great idea to hold an exhibition. Best of luck with it and well done in your progress of overcoming your adversity.
Sometimes. Sometimes I'm an idiot as well, but we all have our problems. ;P While for heavy use that is a long time, I remember where I was two months after shit went down... the person you'll be a year from now might have a hard time recognizing the person you are today. I know new people have come into my life and I'm glad I didn't meet them when things were bad, because I was almost a different person then.
Sorry it took me a minute to get back to this, sometimes my notices get weird or I'm browsing on my phone and forget things. :)
IIN I feel detached from artwork I did while I was taking drugs?
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Are you a Bill Hicks fan by chance? haha theres a comment amongst that that reminded me of an excerpt from one of his shows. I agree with what you are saying, I think alot of artists do their best work when they are drug addled and self tortured. It just seems a shame to me that I can't be proud of the work, because looking at it just brings back so many bad memories. I've flirted with the idea of selling them, but they are so personal to me. It's a very conflicting state to be in. But thank you for taking the time to write your comment and for your empathy :)
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:) No problem at all. I initially made this profile because I saw opportunities to help people here, and that's certainly a rewarding way to spend some free time. :P
Hmm, how long ago was it since you've been clean? I feel like with more distance from the bad times the easier it gets, though I get the feeling you're older than I am. Im 22 and Ive had some bad experiences in my life, in childhood and then my late teen years. I'm only about a year outside of the last bad thing to have happened, but thanks to a few good friends, a good counselor and support from my family and SO the memories are getting easier to cope with already. It's getting easier by degrees to see rape scenes or rape jokes in television. And its going much faster than I thought... honestly I sort of expected I would have been more fucked up for longer.
I've just recently started doing some artwork related to what happened to me; I don't know if I'd sell any of it but I know I want it to be a gallery display.. something I can use to reach out to other victims.
Basically the point I'm trying to make is it might just not be time yet... Healing time is different for everyone and I have a very limited idea of what you went through, but our minds and bodies are pretty damn resiliant. History has plenty of examples of that. :)
And Ill have to look up Bill Hicks. I know I've heard of him but I'm not extremely familiar.
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22 hey, you are wise beyond your years. I am 28 and I've been clean for 2 months. (A long time for me since I was a heavy user.) My life has improved so much I think I can fight relapsing, you're right it only gets easier with time and distance. Sorry to hear you suffered a traumatic experience, art is great to channel that out and like you said reach out to others. The embodiment in art can make a viewer with similar experiences feel less alone, so its a great idea to hold an exhibition. Best of luck with it and well done in your progress of overcoming your adversity.
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Sometimes. Sometimes I'm an idiot as well, but we all have our problems. ;P While for heavy use that is a long time, I remember where I was two months after shit went down... the person you'll be a year from now might have a hard time recognizing the person you are today. I know new people have come into my life and I'm glad I didn't meet them when things were bad, because I was almost a different person then.
Sorry it took me a minute to get back to this, sometimes my notices get weird or I'm browsing on my phone and forget things. :)