It sounds to me like you have a lot of anxiety about interacting with people. What sticks out to me is you comment, "Sometimes I'm too afraid to leave because I don't want to be seen...", as it reminds me of myself. When I talked to my therapist about my experiences with not wanting to be seen she told me I was afraid or concerned about what people think of me. That was sometime last year and I can't say I've changed a lot but the knowledge of my fear is helping me to think differently and thereby start to challenge my thought patterns and start living differently from there.
I hate the physical sensations I get in my body from anxiety and panic attacks. Those awful sensations actually make my fibromyalgia symptoms worse and I recently had a panic attack that was so bad that I wanted to just run out of a store. Another thing about my behavior that I know is not normal is once I was working on my car and every time the neighbor's garage door would start going up I would go inside because I didn't want to see them or speak to them or have them look at me. Now I just ignore people and let them say hello first. I also feel like I have social anxiety and agoraphobia because I can stay inside for days and prefer to go grocery shopping in the middle of the night among other things. I'm not a professional but in my humble opinion you could greatly benefit from some therapy and maybe even some appropriate medication as determined by your physician. A lot of times with certain types of anxiety and phobias therapy is about exposure to the stressor and developing a tolerance to it. I want to wish you all the best in your struggle.
Oh, one more thing. Are your roommate's family the kind of people who always have to say something in a loud annoying attempt to be witty instead of a simple hello to you even when your just passing through to go to the bathroom or get something from the kitchen? Cause I can relate and find that very annoying.
Is it normal I can't leave my room.
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It sounds to me like you have a lot of anxiety about interacting with people. What sticks out to me is you comment, "Sometimes I'm too afraid to leave because I don't want to be seen...", as it reminds me of myself. When I talked to my therapist about my experiences with not wanting to be seen she told me I was afraid or concerned about what people think of me. That was sometime last year and I can't say I've changed a lot but the knowledge of my fear is helping me to think differently and thereby start to challenge my thought patterns and start living differently from there.
I hate the physical sensations I get in my body from anxiety and panic attacks. Those awful sensations actually make my fibromyalgia symptoms worse and I recently had a panic attack that was so bad that I wanted to just run out of a store. Another thing about my behavior that I know is not normal is once I was working on my car and every time the neighbor's garage door would start going up I would go inside because I didn't want to see them or speak to them or have them look at me. Now I just ignore people and let them say hello first. I also feel like I have social anxiety and agoraphobia because I can stay inside for days and prefer to go grocery shopping in the middle of the night among other things. I'm not a professional but in my humble opinion you could greatly benefit from some therapy and maybe even some appropriate medication as determined by your physician. A lot of times with certain types of anxiety and phobias therapy is about exposure to the stressor and developing a tolerance to it. I want to wish you all the best in your struggle.
Oh, one more thing. Are your roommate's family the kind of people who always have to say something in a loud annoying attempt to be witty instead of a simple hello to you even when your just passing through to go to the bathroom or get something from the kitchen? Cause I can relate and find that very annoying.