Is it normal having a death list/note?

I've been constantly bullied and mistreated by classmates and some teachers. I can't say the answer or give my opinion on a subject because people get mad. I was told off for being too strict and demanding on my college project and people just seem to blame me for all their faults and insult me on a daily basis at college.
I'm writing this death list/note of people I would like being dead; most of these people have done harm to me when I treated them well. I have thought of suicide but why should I die when I'm being nice and demanding the best of me?
I know those people won't die and I won't kill them but still the thought of imagining them dead makes me feel calm.

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Based on 14 votes (5 yes)
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Comments ( 5 )
  • bulbasaur64

    I can see why you would want to do that in your situation, but it sounds like the situation you're in isn't normal or healthy. It's not good that you're feeling so terrible and that people around you seem to be mistreating you, and that's worth addressing. I'd recommend going to a counsellor if you're able.

    I don't want to assume your situation, but is it possible you have any mental health conditions, such as ocd, anxiety, or adhd? I only ask because I have those, and sometimes they make me behave a bit differently than the average person, which I was bullied for in elementary school and high school. People made fun of the way I talked, my mannerisms, and I really struggled with social situations. When I got to college people were nicer, but because of past experiences and my difficulties reading social cues (because of my conditions) I would assume they were being mean to me too. It took a lot of time and therapy to realize, hey, most people actually don't hate me, and the few who do are just jerks.

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  • Someoneudontknow

    Yeah I know how it feels like but maybe you need to change your attitude and show people that enough is enough and this is who you are and not going to change for no reason in the world, I don't know if the death note will help but you need to remember that you have to deal with these people only a little more and then have diploma for the rest of ur life

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  • My_name_was_already__used

    The note in orang read it please...

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  • RoseIsabella

    GO GET HELP ASAP!!!

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  • bubsy

    Normal for a middle or high-school kid. But for a college student, you need to get more mature. You don't need anime, you need to start developing your social skills.

    I recommend you read "How to Win Friends and Influence People". If you apply it, your list of enemies will vanish.

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