IIN for women to take advantage of friends?

I actually spent about 25 years in depression and trying to get my head out of the mud. I know how women feel when they say "NO". I haven't been able to hold a job for more than 4-5 years, with exception i was at the post office for about 9 years. I tried to forget the past and I was doing good until a counselor for the VS asked standard questions. There was one asking into had been sexually abused while in military, and I broke down and started crying again. It brought it all back up again after I had forgot it and left it behind me.