Is it normal for me to let a boy take advantage of me like this . ?
I'm a Junior in high school, i only have two friends, im not a nerd or anything. Im just the type of person who keeps my circle tight because im not down for the drama. lol. anyways but I met this boy on my way home from school ( i already knew who he was but i never talked to him till that day), we talked for a little bit than he asked for my number, i gave it to him ( i didnt think he would actually call me, because he was one of the dudes every girl in school wanted to talk to ), but surprisely he texted me that day and we started talking from there. Talking to him made me gain some self confidence. He made me so happy. anyways my friends warned me about him, they told me dont fall for him, he messed with alot of girls in school and he even got like 3 girls in school pregnant. But i didnt listened to them because he kept telling me what i wanted to hear so i kept falling for him. One day he told me to come over his house after school, (i did). when i got there we watched a movie. During the movie he tried to have sex with me so i told him no becsuse it was our first time chilling alone. so he said cool he respected that ( i thought he was going to stop talking to me after that day but he didnt). we still talked on the phone, said hi to each other in school, ect. Couple of weeks later he invited me to his house again, We chilled ,watched a movie, play fight. & it lead to us kissingand stuff he asked me can we do it i told him no because im a virgin and im not ready to lose it. so he got all emotional and started to tell me Im WIFEY im going to be around for a long time dont worry about what people had to say about it.( we talked for one hour before i finally lost it to him) after we did it he called me for 2 or 3 days than he stopped talking to me. everytime we saw each other he'll just look at me. sometimes i'll go home and cry all day and night. that really broke my heart. Like a month later he called me like he necer stopped talking to me or nothing. so i bad to ask him why did he do that to me ? he came up with all kinds of excuses i couldnt help but take him back ( i liked him too much , matter of fact i still like). so we were back together and everything was going smooth untill we went and had sex again & it was just a repeat of everything that happened the first time. I was heart broken AGAINNN. Now he want me back again but i rather not accept him. he'd put through soo much pain. Im crying as im writting. I cant even put my feelings into words SMH