Is it normal for me to have resentment toward my pregnant girlfriend?
I had been dating my GF 6 months prior to her getting pregnant. She made me feel 100% comfortable assuring me she was on top of her cycle and there was literally a 1% chance of her getting pregnant. One day after a pregnancy scare she asked whether I wanted children at the time, my answer no. She replied she didn't either, and proceeded asking me if I were ok with her getting an abortion. We both agreed and thought it would be best then the topic was closed. Well, she got pregnant not long after and had a change of heart. I still felt the same and expressed to her I didn't want children, she explained that she was in between and ultimately decided to not make a decision which is deciding to keep the child. I never sided with her and she told me she didn't need me and could do it without me, pretty much telling me to f*ck off.
The whole ordeal has left me with a sense of betrayal, she's 7 months pregnant now and I still can't seem to shake it off. As much as I try I continue feeling as though I can't trust her, I feel like I let a huge guard down in trusting her and she made me feel so comfortable.. yet not only did she change her mind about something so important but my input essentially weighed no value in her decision. I feel like, if she got pregnant and we never had a conversation agreeing that she'd get an abortion I'd be more ok with her decision. But the fact that she brought it up and we both agreed on something important that drastically affects our lives, then just changed her mind still eats me up inside.
Is it normal for me to feel resentment toward her? Could I be happy marrying someone, whom in the back of my mind I feel like I can't trust in making life changing decisions that affect me?