Is It Normal for me to hate myself this much?

don't think of it as change, think of it as a clean slate. If none of this works then I have one more tactic. Find choose one thing you hate about yourself for example, your appearance. if you are overweight, think of it as being the luckiest person in the world because thousands of people are starving in the world. if you don't like that you are a boy, think of what its like to be a girl. I am and its not all its cracked up to be, you are depicted more in society and face more peer pressure and emotional/psychological damage more than boys. And also don't forget, if you think you are stupid, you have years to learn new thing while some people in the world can't even get an education or a job. I would also love to be bisexual, its so interesting and unique!

you don't need to change if you are scared of it. all you need to do is get a new perspective of yourself:) hey if a guy can cut off his arm with a pocket knife, a girl can become a surfing champion with one arm, a lady can learn to speak and write a book being deaf and blind, then why wouldn't you be able to be just as strong. Everyone is important and amazing including you. Its not worth feeling this way when you have so many years left of your life!