I hated my younger brothers.... I mean I really really hated them. i wanted to kill one of them and when I got old enough to leave home I left gladly. I am so much happier without them in my life and I feel so free! i am pretty sure my brothers hated me too and they prob am super glad I am gone but idc. One thing I do realize is the hate I felt for my brothers I realize it was never for my brothers it was for my mom who would always make me babysit my brothers and always made me look after them. I didn't realize this until I had an arguement with her before I left home. I realized i never hated my brothers, I just hated my mother. I was the black sheep becuz I had a different father but my brothers all had the same dad and my mom was with their dad. So sometimes I felt like she loved them more then me and she let them get away with more then I ever was able to get away with. She was totally different with them then she was with me. Dig deep in yourself and try and figure out y u hate ur sister so much... Maybe you just need to move away from her for a while. I know from experience that if you stay away long enough u will eventually miss her... Just for a second but the thought of her will surely pop up in ur head from time to time. Maybe you do truly hate her that is okay and is normal. Give yourself some space from her and maybe after years of being away from eachother when you see her again when you have grown up and had children then you will connect and everything will come to light. Maybe you and her will finally see eye to eye and maybe for once in your life you will enjoy her company. I have seen that happen time and time again where siblings hated eachother and then all of a sudden years later was very close and loving. So don't kill her yet... Just give the relationship some time to develope.
Is it normal for me to feel like life would be better if she was dead?
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I hated my younger brothers.... I mean I really really hated them. i wanted to kill one of them and when I got old enough to leave home I left gladly. I am so much happier without them in my life and I feel so free! i am pretty sure my brothers hated me too and they prob am super glad I am gone but idc. One thing I do realize is the hate I felt for my brothers I realize it was never for my brothers it was for my mom who would always make me babysit my brothers and always made me look after them. I didn't realize this until I had an arguement with her before I left home. I realized i never hated my brothers, I just hated my mother. I was the black sheep becuz I had a different father but my brothers all had the same dad and my mom was with their dad. So sometimes I felt like she loved them more then me and she let them get away with more then I ever was able to get away with. She was totally different with them then she was with me. Dig deep in yourself and try and figure out y u hate ur sister so much... Maybe you just need to move away from her for a while. I know from experience that if you stay away long enough u will eventually miss her... Just for a second but the thought of her will surely pop up in ur head from time to time. Maybe you do truly hate her that is okay and is normal. Give yourself some space from her and maybe after years of being away from eachother when you see her again when you have grown up and had children then you will connect and everything will come to light. Maybe you and her will finally see eye to eye and maybe for once in your life you will enjoy her company. I have seen that happen time and time again where siblings hated eachother and then all of a sudden years later was very close and loving. So don't kill her yet... Just give the relationship some time to develope.