Is it normal for me to be turned on by watching fish getting cut up?
So one day i decided to make sushi for fun.. so to prepare for the meal i decided to look for yt videos on how to fillet fish properly for the sushi. However after watching a video of a chef filleting salmon, i saw a video thumbnail of a dude cutting up a huge tuna fish in the related vids and strangely enough throughout watching t video, i got turned on watching the dude plunge the knife and running down the fish and blood splattered out and it was sort of hot and started to wack off i don't know why... but it was so pleasurable and i had the most intense orgasm I've ever had. and every time I've finished doing this i feel guilt for pleasing myself to an act so gruesome why oh why is this normal please I'm just so confused help :(