Is it normal for an existential crisis to give me such an anguish?

Have you ever thought of human life as an oraganism, like a cell that keeps evolving to survive in its surrounding enviorments, if souls are energy (awsome perspective),and energy is life then even the most insignicant of germ has a soul, now that being said, we have steralized, purified and sanitized millions of souls a day, what if we are like the white blood cells fighting off infection and the world is an organ on the brink of collapse, white blood cells are good for you but if you have an exeedingly amount it could do you harm, now maybe the point of life is to find a way to kill the infection before it gets out of our control or we end up losing because of abunce in cells (war, famine, global warming -infection) (over-exceeding amount of blood cells- over population of the world) if the white blood cells could just quit the bullshit then maybe they would have a chance to save the collapsing organ that is our world, ultimately our selfishness, greed, vengefulness is our downfall and ther is nothing we can do about it, we are destined to fail and dye off just like scab