Is it normal for a woman to have a sorceress/wise woman fetish??!!

Hiya,

I'm a woman with a thing for singers who can go really high like this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oEw1NUemmqs .

If the stereo is on, there's music like that on.

It seems to be mostly older women who are a bit mystical, you know, long white hair, peasant/witchy/hippie clothes, like a fantasy picture/computer game. Same with men. I dress & act like this myself to a mild degree. I've written stories where a girl is rescued by a sorceress/wise woman who is also a musician, blissfully happy & not wanting to leave her, hearing nothing but her singing or softly whispering protective things. I wish I could jump into said stories which is why I wrote them. I love women who sing like the above so much I would do anything they wanted if I had the opportunity (which I don't, sadly)

My eyes light up when I hear them & I'm totally incapable of conversation. I just melt. I think I peed myself slightly when hearing one of said singers who I’ve liked all my life & who I have memorabilia of all over my wall. She danced really close to me at a gig & ran her hand up my arm, & I was disappointed when she went away. I've been teased that I fancy various women before, which was true – I’ve even joked about it myself – but when I got to know the women I had crushes on they weren't very nice. I've done stuff with one & even though I was embarrassed I wished for a repeat performance (it was much easier for me than being with a man would be) but she had a ton of problems so I cut contact. Then I forgot about it but these type of things keep coming back.

I love & fancy really tough men too & have always got on with them a lot better than I have women. When I was younger I wished I was male & wore male clothes. I'm super girlie now, wear tighter tops than before, long earrings, long painted nails, but I’ve kept the short hair & filthy sense of humour. Do you think I’ve become the way I am, ie liking said type of woman , due to wanting to be a boy when younger?? Could it just be because I like their singing so much??

The only problem with this is I am severely disabled & live in a care facility. They're quite laid back here, so they'd be fine if I’m Bi, (I'm a bit strange anyway) & my parents & friends would be fine too. If we say certain things here it's almost set in stone, & I don't want to say I am only to embarrass myself later if I’m not!