Is it normal, for a place to make you suicidal?

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The reason I'm asking this question is because there's a zoo that I've gone to a few times and two out of those times I've tried to kill myself. The first time, I was about 11 years old and I was fearful about going to after school in the fall and getting bullied due to my sexuality. It was a very hot day, about 100 something degrees. I had decided that I would kill myself by purposefully causing myself a heatstroke. I had drunk a little bit at breakfast and when I got to the zoo, I refused to drink anything. By the middle of the trip, I suddenly found myself feeling bad and this confused me. Silly me, didn't read up on the side-effects of heatstroke and before I blacked out I was urged to drink something. I got better and a emergency was avoided.

The second time, happened about 1 or 2 years ago, but this time I wasn't suicidal prior to going to that zoo. I was in a group with my friends and we had to walk across a bridge to get to the zoo. While we were crossing, me and a friend started to ponder what would happen if someone jumped off the bridge at such a height. It was a innocent thought, but the next thing I knew we were both running and desperately trying to jump off the bridge! The railing on the bridge had about 4-5 levels on it. The first time I tried I got on two and the next I got on three. My friend got on three the first time and four the next. What we were feeling is hard to explain. It was like we were compelled to do it and there was no stopping it. A few of our friends were upset and were scared that we would get in trouble. There was barely anyone around. Our counselor was too far away with the rest of the group to know what was happening. The only thing that made us stop was because our friend flipped out over us. He was obviously in emotional distress so we stopped for his sake. We tried to catch up to the rest of the group, but we were still on the bridge and couldn't help but run at it. Later on, we were coming back to our bus and me and that friend nearly managed to jump off it. I asked my friend how it was hard to resist the urge and he told me that there was something so tempting about it that he really wanted to jump off of it.

I'm NOT suicidal now. Those incidents have been in the back of my mind for some time and I couldn't help but wonder. Because of this, I've decided that it's probably best for me to never go to that zoo again. Is it possible for a certain place to make you attempt to commit suicide even if you weren't suicidal beforehand? IIN?!

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  • GeorgeMcBob
    12 years ago

    Try flinging poop at the humans on the other side of the bars. It works for me.

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  • Wigglesworth
    12 years ago

    The first time sounds like you were just depressed and could have attempted suicide anywhere.

    The second time sounded kind of like impulsive behavior.

    If you want a paranormal explanation, maybe that zoo is haunted by the spirit (or spirits) of someone who offed himself/herself?

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    • Avant-Garde
      12 years ago

      I was thinking that maybe the zoo has negative energies. Perhaps, from the animals or maybe someone killed themselves there. I'll definitely try to look into it.

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      • Wigglesworth
        12 years ago

        It would be interesting if you even found out it was on an Indian burial ground or something like that.

        Just try not to get that urge to kill yourself if you go there again. =|

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        • Avant-Garde
          12 years ago

          I checked and the only controversies I found where about the animals dying there. A elephant was euthanized the same year I first tried to kill myself there.

          I don't want to ever go there if I can help it.

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  • livetolovelife143
    11 years ago

    It sounds like something was tryin to make u the second time, i dont know if you belive in ghosts but to me it sounds like aome sort of paranormalsy behavior was making you do this, the second time.

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    • Avant-Garde
      11 years ago

      I do believe in ghosts and other spirits. I think it's quite possible that that was the case. I remember looking up the zoo on wiki and I couldn't find anything about it be built on top of an Indian burial ground, but apparently quite a few animals have died there. I don't know if anyone has ever died there whether it be from suicide or death by an animal. It's something I'll have to look into more. I've decided never to go back their unless it can't be helped. There's something extremely unsettling about the whole thing. O_0

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  • sega31098
    11 years ago

    I feel depressed in boring old towns.

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  • Colorless
    11 years ago

    I think i can understand this. Though i have never tried to kill myself, i do belive that i place that holds bad memories can make you feel suicidal. Like is you were standing in a park with a person you love, i think you could go there again and feel happy by remembering how you felt there before. Am i making sense here? :)

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    • Avant-Garde
      11 years ago

      Yes:)

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago

    IDK about you but when I think suicide I think Ohio.

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    • Avant-Garde
      11 years ago

      Ohio makes me think of potatoes for some reason.

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      • [Old Memory]
        11 years ago

        Idaho makes me think of potatoes.

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  • IrishPotato
    12 years ago

    If that certain place gives you a negative energy and feel to kill yourself, avoid it.

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  • marykateln2
    12 years ago

    Maybe the first time it was really something you wanted to do, if so the subconsious part of your brain may be angry that you failed, and when you visit this zoo, to your brain you are revisiting a failure.If that is what is going on then maybe your mind when being reminded that you failed, is urging you to try again until you succeed.

    I have th urge to jump from high places sometimes, but I have a little adrenaline junkie in me. Maybe it is an adreneline thing.

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    • Avant-Garde
      12 years ago

      That is a possibility. When I failed, a part of me was upset at myself. The most recent times I contemplated it, I didn't do it and as a result saw myself as a failure....

      I don't know if it's a adrenaline thing, but it's possible. When I'm up on high places, I have the overwhelming tendency to want to kill myself. The last time I was at the Empire State Building, I went up to the "observation deck". I got the urge and literally started grabbing on to the fence and sticking my shoes in it. I really wanted to climb over it and jump off or for the fence to have broken. It's a hard thing to do when allot of people are around and the weird thing is that I have a extreme fear of heights. I guess I should try to avoid tall things.

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  • penguin1
    12 years ago

    Some places have been known to hold on to the great sorrow or joy of the people who visited there before. For an example, go to:

    http://www.atlantisqueen.com/front-page/2012/3/28/imprints-from-the-past.html

    They can probably explain it better than I can. Hope this helps.

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    • Avant-Garde
      12 years ago

      Thank you. This has helped to give me some insight.

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