Is it normal for a man to want nothing more to be a woman

I can't say enough how much I wish I was a girl, everything about girls is what I want, and have, sexy clorhes, lingerie, skirts, panties, even a pussy, I think a girl is the most beautiful creature walking earth, I have dreamed of becoming a girl since I was six, I love dessing, acting, and even pleasing a man very much as a girl, ever since I was very young I've struggled with feelings of feeling different, around about 7, I would hide in the bathroom, and secretly put on girls clothes, and wear make-up, I liked it alot, at night I cried cuz I wanted to be a girl so badly, when I was 10, I told my mom I wanted to be a girl, and she lauhed at me, ans made fun of me, I countinued dressing as, and pretending to be a girl, at night I would dress in sexy lingerie, and prerend my bf/husband was coming home, I would cook, and pretend he was there, and we would have pationate sex everywhere, I even had a friend in middle school whos parents were never home, I deessed in his sisters clothes, and would pretend I was his wife, cleaning, cooking, and pleasing him sexually, and I gave him head sometimes all weekend long, I knew then I was meant to be a girl, I enjoyed being a housewife, and having sex with men, and being dressed as, and treated like a girl, I only felt good with myself as a girl, I would even play dress-up with my babysitter, one night when I was 11, her boyfriend had come over to watch movies with us, I was in a cute black skirt she gave me to wear, and a cute pink shirt (even stuffed bra, with matching panties), as we sat and talked, she asked if I wanted to join them in sex, if I were going to be a girl, that guys liked blowjobs, and taught me how to give a guy head, and I loved it, all I could think about was sucking a guys dick, I would steal womens lingerie, and wear them to sleep, or when I was giving a guy head,s I was nervous, and scared, it was the the most incredable experience of my life, that continued for about four years, I struggled with pain hiding it from the world, I wanted even more to be a girl, I ran away from home, and moved in with a guy who let me dress as a girl, at night I would fantasize I was his wife, and would have sex with him, and he treated me like a girl, I am now in my begining 30s, I still cry, and dream of becoming a girl, I know in my heart I was meant to be a girl, I want to live, and become a girl, I want to be married to a man, and pleasure him, and be a great wife, companion, lover, I so deperatly want to be a girl, I will do anything, and I do mean anything to become one, I struggle with my fem side, wanting to be in sexy clothes, lingerie, I really enjoy giving head to a guy alot, I like it when a man touches my body, calling me by my fem name, I love the thrust of him while he is inside me, or the look on his face while I'm on my knees blowing him, can someone help me become a real woman, and is it normal I want this so badly.