Is it blood obsession, masochism, or what?

hi, I am pretty confused on what this is. I used to cut myself and recently started again, and I have a problem with picking scabs/picking at my finger until it bleeds. I’ve read some on masochism and stuff like that, but it’s not like I derive any kind of pleasure from it. in fact , everyone thinks I’m a normal person and I’m even considering being a therapist when I grow up. I don’t cut myself or do it because I’m sad or mad or upset, I just like seeing the tissues full of blood and it dripping down and stuff. I don’t really like pain either, it just feels like a bad habit like eating junk food or something like that. I don’t like the taste of it or anything like that, I just like to squeeze the blood out. Can anybody help me with what this is and how to stop/cope with it?

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  • I think it has something to do with the colour and thickness of it. I used to do the same and sadly have a bunch of scars on my left arm due to it.

    So I get why you'd do it but at the same time you should stop. The scars aren't worth it.

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    • insequential

      I agree, I wear pretty covering clothes and I do it where it’s pretty unlikely someone will see (ribs /stomach or hips) but scars are a problem

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  • RoseIsabella

    I had an awful nosebleed the other day.

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  • Aethylfritha

    Its a gore obsession? Maybe youd like a job as a meat cutter.

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    • TheBlindInquisitor

      I wanted to be a butcher when I was growing up.

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      • Aethylfritha

        Perfect!

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  • d0esnormalmatter

    Maybe its anxiety related?

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    • insequential

      yeah, I also tend to pick at my fingers more if I’m nervous too so that probably has something to do with it

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      • d0esnormalmatter

        Yeah try just consciously avoiding doing it and do stuff that helps you relax and settle down like listening to music. Anxiety meds maybe as well.

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  • rocketdave

    If you want to know if you're masochist cum round to my place.
    You'll have your bare bum caned until it bleeds and you won't sit down easily for a couple of days!

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  • litelander8

    I'm not interested in blood. More the smoothness of skin. I'm a compulsive picker. Which I do to myself and others.

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    • insequential

      yeah more than half the time it’s me picking at my fingers rather than cutting, and I can understand liking the feeling of skin

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