Is is normal for me to want to have a child?
I always have a lot of bad things happening to me, like the only sain person in my family had alstimers (sp) and is getting very bad (its where your brain stops working correctly, loosing short term and then long term memories.. names, dates, faces and being able to function) about 2 years ago my dad left because i caught him cheating, then i started 'getting around'. thought i got prego and suddenly everything seemed so unimportant.. well turned out i wasnt and ever since then i have wanted a baby so bad ive thought about tryign to get pregnant but i couldnt do that to anyone right now, but i want a child so bad. my friends always make comments saying im going to make a great mother without me asking or bringing up me wanting one. I just need some advice on how to try to hold off, bacause i think about it at least once a month.. (not on my 'time of the month' either!)
side notes
im 19
full time college student
live on campus
3hrs away from any family
part-time job
depression is something that comes into my life easily if i feel un-needed