Is a non-sexual obsession with blood/bleeding normal?
In short, whenever I even think about bleeding at all, I get this adrenaline boost. It's crazy, with about half a minute of thinking time I can feel ready to run a marathon.
I've been cutting a bit to try and get some good feels (blood running, drinking it) but I haven't gone too far, my cuts basically clot themselves in a minute or two. When I find myself bleeding (especially from an accident) I get super pumped, to the point where hiding it from others is actually hard
Anyway, is the feeling of running blood or drinking blood giving a massive adrenaline boost normal? Should I try and control my urges to cut more?