Indian man exclusively attracted to White women
I'm a 26-year old Indian guy who feels exclusive attraction to White women but worried about the consequences of going ahead.
To put matters in perspective, I'm from a fairly conservative background and majority of the people I deal with happen to be South Asians. Arranged marriages are the norm here. Most South Asians are still endogamous.
Having had extensive exposure to White women, I just can't think of anyone else. They're pleasing to the senses, have a sweet attitude and, I like their strong sense of independence. Indian women, in contrast, are deep-down conservative and do not satisfy me the way White women are able to.
I don't want this to be a transitory flame. But, any decision will have serious consequences. If I don't marry within my community, I'll become ostracised and my kids will find a hard time connecting back to Indian culture, the language -there's a whole world of differences. Besides, they will face constant racism while growing up and not have a stable community environment which is essential for success in life.
My attraction for White women has become so strong that I simply wouldn't find the same level of attraction after a traditional Indian marriage. This can hamper my marital life if I do fulfill my family expectations. They're sending me tons of pictures of prospective brides -even though most are very beautiful, I know I can't get along with them for too long.
It's just a matter of time before I plunge ahead as either end of the pendulum swings.