In love with my lesbian teacher
I am not sure if I am a lesbian a straight or a bisexual but I think I am in love with an English teacher at my school who is a lesbian (yay)! My junior and senior high school (she teaches in the senior) are in the same building and I am in love with her since the first time I saw her.. Means 4 years now even if she was not yet my teacher, there was something... Imagine how happy I was when this year after 3 years I learnt she was a lesbian. I really admire her she has so many talents and all my classmates say we look alike in the outside but mostly in the inside.(We both are musicians she plays in theatre and I want to be an actress etc) I think of her all the time really but sometimes I feel sad when I think that nothing is gonna happen between us. (she is like 27-30 years older.......) The thing is I feel this is the person I want to share my life for so many reasons and this emotion is so serious. I saw her by chance getting off the same train as me (from a town we went the same date 6 hours far from where we live), I saw her by chance in the metro (not where I live) and we got off in the same station, and in concerts.. They seemed to me like signs. Well, I am not going to tell her anything, but, in two years I am off school and I have thought to ask her to teach me the accordion then cause I won't stand having her far.. How does this sound? (Now in the summer she is having some concerts with her band I will go to one of them for sure.. If I go to more would it be ''weird'' ? )