im wasting my life!

There's nothing to life, actually. So you're not really wasting anything. There are people who are driven by something, self righteousness, global goodness, hate (look at the monkeys, storming embassisies). Some people are motivated by greed, but that's a lame thing. If you don't feel a strong need to go and change the world -it 's totally cool, but you might consider some hobby. It makes things interesting while we're stuck in this world. Like a library or gym in prison, you know.