Im convinced im sick

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Jamie: I'm completely obsessed with the fact that im messed up in the head.
There are only a few people i can imagine myself loosing my virginity to and my cousin is one of them. We have been close since i was born. hes just a little bit older than me. but we've still be there like brother and sister.
i feel guilty and sick and wrong because i want to be with him. and hes my cousin!
i know this is wrong but my best friend is convinced its normal to have feelings for someone you trust as deeply as i trust him.
i mean thats what you base relationships on right? trust?
I know for a fact that i love him, but in both ways. as a family member and as a partner.
I cant help but feel like he has feelings for me as well.
every time i bring it up he get frustrated and yells at me to stop talking about it.
me and him get high together and he blames the drugs for whats im saying. but i mean it all and i remember what i say.
i cant help but feel like he has feelings for me as well. Me and him "experimented" with some things when we were young, like really young! i know he has some feelings because he did when we were little.
i want to make him say it to me, that he likes me too, but i cant figure a way to do it.
this all makes me feel guilty and wrong.
its not harming anyone but me if i keep it a secret...
Is it wrong to feel how i feel? or normal

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  • bbsc0ttishlass
    14 years ago

    i think you're okay, so long as you keep these feelings to yourself. and if you think its bad then it is, but if you are okay with feeling this way and keeping it to yourself then that's fine. we all have a hot cousin. sometimes we ARE the hot cousin. it just depends. i say anything is fine to think of so long as you don't act on it.

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